Inspiration

So I have been very slack this week with my gym routine, & not too good at eating healthy either. However, it's amazing how you can find inspiration in the most interesting things! It was a girls only weekend in Charleston, we went to the beach where we all got burnt, & then decided to dress up a bit Saturday night & hit the town to get our drink on a little bit! Went to wet willies, where we didn't get carded to get in the door (bummer to feeling young self esteem), then finally got drinks, & picked a booth out. We were sitting there enjoying our drinks, & lots of people watching. Out of the blue 2 random guys show up at our booth, where one slides into the booth beside me. Well 2 out of 3 of us girls are married ( and the other in a serious relationship), but I must say a hot guy & his friend paying us a little attention caught us off guard. I mean this kind of stuff does not happen to us on a regular basis! I have been with my husband for 10 years next month, we started dating right as I graduated hs. So he is the only guy to hit on me in like the last 10 years. So I was incredibly flattered by this guy, who is deff a few years younger & very hot hitting on me!!! Gave me the motivation to get my ass back in gear with my healthy eating, & the gym this week! I want to be married & hot, and for other guys to think I'm "hit on" worthy!! Lol :D

Stress Eating

So I am determined to get back on my weight loss band wagon, & yesterday I had a little jog outside( running outside is harder for me than the treadmill for some reason), & I had a light lunch; part of a protein shake & some sun chips, had Greek yogurt & banana for breakfast. Anyways I went to work with my protein shake (sipping on it, was a little sicking sweet). Got report on my residents, & realized my night was going to hell in a hand basket really quickly. Gave up on the protein shake , & got to work. Didn't have time to take a real meal break, finally ate part of it @ 10:30pm. Was at work till 3 AM, this morning. From 11pm-4am all I wanted to do was stress eat, & eat lots of junk!!!!! I did indulge on a little stress eating, mostly because I never really had dinner. However I mange to resist most of the junk, I had a protein bar @ 11:30pm, resisted stopping @ Wendy's for the fries & kid frosty I wanted on my way home. When I got home I ate some puffed rice (pirates booty) & an edys natural popscile, & some organic chocolate milk. Was still too much food to be consuming so late, however I decided to be thankful I resisted the bad junk food, & at least at small amount of the healthier stuff. Sometimes I do great at resisting the crap food for months at a time, but once I break the cycle my body gets used to craving the sweets & stuff, so it's once again hard to kick the habit. I have done an extreme clean diet the last 6 months on & off, where your have no bread, milk products, beans (unless green beans), or alcohol. I decided that even though you really drop the lbs that way, that it is too much of an extreme diet for me to live with every day. Which is my ultimate goal, to maintain healthy eating everyday!!!! Still striving, & kicking my junk food rut to the curb 1 step at a time!!!

Junk food rut.....

So ever since I came home from my vacation, I have been in a junk food rut. I will think "your gonna be good today Melissa, & before I can reach the end of the day I have ate some type of junk food crap. It's really starting to disgust me that, I can't seem to shake this habit the last 2 weeks. I want to loose more weight, not maintain or gain for goodness sakes. Ugh...can someone lend me so willpower because apparently mine has left the building. Work has also been, very stressful the last 2 weeks so I don't know if that is playing into my issue or not. I really need to just get my act together, where is my determined Melissa....I need her to come bak ASAP! Lol. Does anyone else have this problem?

Thank you

Well after my 1st post yesterday, I received lots of nice comments encouraging me to keep blogging, so I am gonna try.  One fried suggested I should come up with a meal plan & work out plan, so I guess I will see what I can come up with there.  This is an odd time for me to start a blog, as I just started back to school to finish my RN (busy bee).  Today I had planned on taking 2 classes at the gym, had my alarm all set to get up for the 9:30 Body Combat class, however I did as usual and talked my sleepy self out of the class.  This happens almost every Tuesday morning when I plan on going to take body combat, now I do have a Pilates Reformer class as well on Tuesday mornings at 10:45, which I have only missed once due to sleeping in.  I don't feel that I can skimp out of reformer class because its a class of generally 4-5 people and the instructor would notice if I wasn't there, however for combat class that is 30 or so people and the instructor will never notice if I don't come to it.  I need to find some motivation to hold myself accountable and get my lazy ass out of the bed & to combat on Tuesday mornings!  Does anyone have any recommendations on what motivates you?  I used to have work out partners, which always helped! However now days due to my work schedule and school schedule nobody else can work out with me on a regular basis......so I need to look down deep and find my own accountable & motivation! Till next time my friends.........

Background

I have always had a battle with my weight. I have started this blog to give some insite how I have been able to go from my heaviest weight of 315 lbs in 2008,to the 190's now in 2012. I will not lie, & say it's been an easy process, but it has been worth every struggle to be where I am now! I have been married for almost 1 year now; my husbands name is Justin, & we have 3 dogs. I generally try to eat healthy now days, & work out at least 3 days a week. By loosing weight I have been able to try all new kinds of experiences, some which I have come to love! I signed up for my 1st 5k race in march of 2011, with one of my best friends. We didn't really train for the race, we just had a goal of finishing it, knowing we would be walking the entire way. I have done 3 5k's now, 1 8k, & 1 10k. I no longer just walk the races, but alternate walking & sprinting. I have signed up for a 5k in November, which I have a goal of being able to run the entire race!!! I have lost roughly 123lbs since my heaviest weight, & would like to loose another 50-60lbs. When I really started focusing on loosing weight it was Christmas of 2010, because I had just gotten engaged & all I could think is "wedding pictures are forever, & I don't want to look back at fat weddi g pictures!" so Jan of 2011, I joined a gym & weight watchers. At first I followed WW to a T,but eventually I droped WW because being a nurse I had known all a long what I should & should not eat, it was just a matter of getting into that pratice! At the time I got engaged I probably weighed about 280 lbs or so, at my wedding day I believe I was down to about 225 lbs or so. I was very pleased with the weight I had lost, & how I ha started to tone up my body from sheer diet & working out. I enjoyed doing cardio classes, however weight training & running were not enjoyable. When I first started at the gym, I had a personal trainer, which helped teach me what to do with weights & the various machines at the gym. Now days I still love cardio classes, Body Jam is my fave, but I'm really trying to get to a point where I enjoy running too! I also started taking Pilates reformer about 6 months ago, which I also really enjoy! The reason I decided to start blogging is because I get asked on a regular basis "what is your secret", to my weight loss. I usually say no, secret just hard work & determination! Which is in fact the struggle, I still continue to struggle with my "inner" fat girl mentally; I still crave the unhealthy & fried foods, & I still have a serious struggle with my body image! I almost think I struggle more with my body image now, than I did before I lost weight. I hope this blog inspires someone else to get started working on their fitness, we are a society in an epidemic of obesity! I finally decided I wante to work at living & enjoying life, instead of slowly killing myself enjoying a lazy lifestyle & fattening foods!